
Photograph by Burt Glinn
Robert F. and Ethel Kennedy in rear-view mirror, 1968
via: bebelestrange
Edgar Cayce (March 18, 1877 – January 3, 1945) (pronounced /ˈkeɪsiː/) was an American psychic. He is said to have demonstrated an ability to channel answers to questions on subjects such as health or Atlantis, while in a self-induced trance. Though Cayce considered himself a devout Christian and lived before the emergence of the New Age Movement, some believe he was the founder of the movement and had influence on its teachings.[1]
Cayce became a celebrity toward the end of his life, and the publicity given to his prophecies has overshadowed what to him were usually considered the more important parts of his work, such as healing (the vast majority of his readings were given for people who were sick) and theology (Cayce was a lifelong, devout member of the Disciples of Christ). Skeptics[2] challenge the statement that Cayce demonstrated psychic abilities, and conventional Christians also question his unorthodox answers on religious matters (such as reincarnation and Akashic records). He may have been the source for the idea that California would fall into the Pacific Ocean (though he never said exactly this).[citation needed]
Today there are tens of thousands of Cayce students. Most are located in the United States and Canada, but Edgar Cayce Centers are now found in 25 other countries. The Association for Research and Enlightenment (ARE), headquartered in Virginia Beach, Virginia, is the major organization promoting interest in Cayce.
This is my virtual airplane (Click on the picture for a larger view). My 21” monitor, the Core Duo Quad computer, the digital 3D joystick, and Microsoft Flight Simulator 9, “A Century of Flight,” is loaded. What you see on the monitor is the control panel of the cockpit of a Boeing 757. I am flying somewhere at night, alone in the dark sky with my virtual colleagues. Actually, this is a corner of my dining room, the place I prefer to work and have my primary computer set up. But in the virtual world, it is the nerve center of a powerful commercial airliner zipping along at 25,000 feet while the earth sleeps below.
If I had a dollar for every hour I have spent flying the simulator, I could probably buy a new house. I have been doing this since the mid 80’s, but I haven’t grown tired of it. I used to play a lot of the “fight-sim” air combat games – dogfights everywhere from Guadalcanal to outer space, but I realized that all of that shooting down and being shot down, bailing out into the ocean and the like was really just a nerve-wracking hassle, and it was not what I really enjoyed about the computer flying games. What I enjoyed was the flying itself. Lifting off from LAX and landing in Denver in a driving snow storm is plenty enough of a life-and-death challenge for me. I don’t need anyone shooting at me to raise my pulse rate. Click here for the rest of the article
Those who profess to favor freedom and yet depreciate agitation, are people who want crops without ploughing the ground; they want rain without thunder and lightning; they want the ocean without the roar of its many waters. The struggle may be a moral one, or it may be a physical one, or it may be both. But it must be a struggle. Power concedes nothing without a demand; it never has and it never will --- Justice William O. Douglas
Fort Duffield was a Union installation set on seven steep hills overlooking West Point, Kentucky. It guarded the Union supply depot at West Point on the Ohio River. At one point, a full brigade of troops was garrisoned here, mostly Michigan regulars, although there were elements from Wisconsin and Indiana. We went up there to shoot pictures. I had assumed, before I climbed the hill, that the canons at the fort would be aimed at the river, but they weren’t. There are no canons at the fort now, but during the war, the redoubt faced inland and the canons were aimed toward Kentucky. In the War Between the States, Kentucky was largely sympathetic to the South, although the legislature refused to vote for secession. The mission of Fort Duffield was to protect the supply depot and the Louisville-Nashville turnpike from the Confederates….
…Local ghost hunters AfterDark have done “investigations” on Fort Duffield and believe that the site is haunted. I didn’t see any ghosts when I was up there, but I like to keep an open mind on such things. I do think there is more to this world than meets the eye. Whenever a place is the site of great suffering, death, sorrow or other intense human emotions, it retains an image or echo of that energy. Sensitive persons can feel it, and if you want to call that a haunting, I’m OK with that….
I’m neurotic. I get tangled up in my mind and do stupid things. I will resist doing something that is easy, for which there is no reason that I shouldn’t do it, but not doing it will make someone mad at me. That’s neurotic. I was somewhat distressed to learn that the DSM-III (Diagnostic and Statistical Manual) had eliminated “neurosis” as a category of mental disorder. I guess I’m OK now since the DSM says that what I have doesn’t exist. One would think that I would quit procrastinating on silly things, but I still do.
Neurosis is a class of personality disorders that do not rise to the level of “psychosis” and they aren’t generally helped by pills, shock treatment and lobotomies. Generally speaking, neuroses won’t land you in prison or the morgue; they just trip you up and make your life a pain in the ass. Often, they are rooted in conflicting messages from parents in early childhood, medium level trauma early in life, self-esteem issues and the like. In "A Bio-Social Theory of Neurosis", Dr. C. George Boeree characterized the effects of neurosis this way:
...anxiety, sadness or depression, anger, irritability, mental confusion, low sense of self-worth, etc., behavioral symptoms such as phobic avoidance, vigilance, impulsive and compulsive acts, lethargy, etc., cognitive problems such as unpleasant or disturbing thoughts, repetition of thoughts and obsession, habitual fantasizing, negativity and cynicism, etc. Interpersonally, neurosis involves dependency, aggressiveness, perfectionism, schizoid isolation, socio-culturally inappropriate behaviors, etc.
While I don’t suffer with “schizoid isolation” (the world won’t leave me alone) and “socio-culturally inappropriate behaviors” (unless you include a certain fondness for assault rifles), virtually all the rest of that stuff has plagued me at one time or another. I have a phobic avoidance going with the Highland Kroger supermarket; I would rather go hungry than enter that store. I will impulsively post weird crap on my blog that I know makes my friends question my sanity. “Unpleasant or disturbing thoughts” – are there any other kinds? Vigilant? Not only am I vigilant, I have two German Shepherds to help me, and one of us is going to pick you up before you get over the wire. “Sadness and depression, anger, irritability…” – if you don’t have these, you just aren’t paying attention.
I have acute mental confusion every time I read the news because it looks like the people running this planet are a whole lot dumber than I am. So, why are they in charge and not me? This confuses the hell out of me. I compulsively take photographs, draw pictures and write things, trying to capture the glimpses of beauty and interest that present themselves to me. I habitually fantasize that this is some kind of bad dream that I’m going to wake up from real soon.
Carl Jung said, “I have frequently seen people become neurotic when they content themselves with inadequate or wrong answers to the questions of life…” OK, Carl, what are the right answers? Shall we all become fully integrated cosmic Buddha-Jesus-Brahma-Godhead, and how many deities does one planet really need? Don’t get me wrong; I like Jung, but not everyone can devote their lives to undergoing psychoanalysis until perfect personal wholeness is achieved, if that’s even possible, and I doubt it actually. Cynical, I guess – see there’s that neurosis popping up again.
You know what’s really wild? I don’t want to be cured. I won’t go to a psychoanalyst to “fix me” because that whole writhing snake pit of personality flaws is a big part of what makes me myself. If I got cured, I wouldn’t have any motivation at all. I guess I’d just sit there like Buddha and soak in nirvana, but honestly, that’s just not my style. I actually kind of like my disturbing thoughts, and maybe, just maybe, a thinking person ought to be a bit angry these days. Yeah, the supermarket thing is kind of psycho, but I’m working on it.
Photograph by Avery, Sid
American (1918-2002)
DESCRIPTIVE TITLE: Buster Keaton with automobile
1965
color print, chromogenic development process
48.3 x 39.2 cm.
Gift of Sid and Diana Avery
87:0826:0003
NON-GEH NUMBER: P225
Sobieszek, Robert. --The Art of Persuasion: A History of Advertising Photography.-- New York: Harry N. Abrams, 1988. pl. 89 (v).//
INSCRIPTION: verso-(partially obscured rubberstamp with inscription) (in ink) "P225" "1 (underlined)" "Keaton" "Please return to: Sid Avery 820 N. La Brea Los Angeles 38, Calif."
copyright, Sid Avery
NOTES: Catalogued 8/87, DZ. See also 87:826:2.
SUBJECTS:
personage, actor / Keaton, Buster
transportation, automobile / Ford
Nippon Kogaku Kogyo Kabushiki Kaisha N719.00002 Nikon I
Nippon Kogaku Kogyo Kabushiki Kaisha N719.00007 Nikon S
Nippon Kogaku Kogyo Kabushiki Kaisha N719.00005 Nikon S2
Nippon Kogaku Kogyo Kabushiki Kaisha N719.00004 Nikon SP
Nippon Kogaku Kogyo Kabushiki Kaisha N719.00001 Nikon F (black, w/F250 Motor Drive)
Nippon Kogaku Kogyo Kabushiki Kaisha N719.00001 Nikon F (Photomic FTn finder)
Nippon Kogaku Kogyo Kabushiki Kaisha N719.00001 Nikon F (Eye-Level finder)
Nippon Kogaku Kogyo Kabushiki Kaisha N719.00014 Nikonos I
Nippon Kogaku Kogyo Kabushiki Kaisha N719.00018 Nikonos II
Nippon Kogaku Kogyo Kabushiki Kaisha N719.00006 Nikon F2
Nippon Kogaku Kogyo Kabushiki Kaisha N719.00023 Fisheye-Nikkor 6mm f/2.8
Nikon N719.00003 Nikon F3
Nikon N719.00015 Nikonos IV-A
Nikon N719.00009 Nikon FM2
Nikon N719.00025 Nikon F3AF
Nikon N719.00010 Nikon F4
Recently, a number of articles and arguments have popped up claiming that blogging is dead. I have some sympathy for the complaint, insofar as many of the original blogs have either gone dormant or morphed into something more akin to “mainstream media” news sites with staff writers, ads and that whole corporate media thing going on. Is this "the death of blogging" or just the fact that many of the more popular blogs have ceased to be blogs and become news/opinion web sites. Is blogging a technology or a literary form? People called me a blogger before I actually had a proper "blog" set up. I had a news page on one of my sites that I updated frequently, but it was manually done, no database or blogging software. I eventually switched over to blog software for my news primarily because sending out e-mails got to be a real hassle and I grew weary of doing it.
Blogs began as personal journals on the Internet. They were different from newspapers and corporate media sites. That was their appeal. They were democratic and anyone could do one. Gone were the filters and gatekeepers of traditional print publishing. No longer does an editor have the final say on whether the world hears your thoughts or not. People could post their thoughts in the wild frontier of the blogosphere and no one could stop them. It was a revolution in creative freedom and it was free. What’s not to like? more
6:30 Sunday evening – We had just come in from walking the dogs. It was 29 degrees in the park and I was cold. I poured a cup of coffee and the phone rang.
“Syd Weedon.”
“Syd, this is Becky.” My mind raced through the catalog of Beckies I’ve known.
“Brian is in the hospital.” My mind narrowed it down to one, my friend Brian with whom I had worked at the printing company downtown. His wife’s name was Becky. Why was she calling me?
“Hi, how are you?”
The printing company was a significant player in the industry in those days. They counted among their clients Cummins Engine, Kentucky Fried Chicken, Electronic Arts and Fidelity. Some serious jobs flowed through our keyboards and monitors. The printing company had hired me because I was a PC wonk. I could do high-end four-color prepress on a PC. I could make Pagemaker dance a jig. I not only understood CorelDraw, but I loved it. But most of our jobs, and especially most of the big ones were not PC; they were Macintosh in Quark, Photoshop, Illustrator and Freehand. I had never laid a glove on a Macintosh, and that’s where Brian comes in. He was the lead guy on second shift pre-press when I hired on. He patiently taught me the Mac and the vagaries of the Linotronic image setter. He taught me how to trap color in Quark and Illustrator. I showed him my tricks on the PC and we’d go out to restaurants together on “lunch break.” We had fun.
“Brian is really sick,” Becky said.
“What’s the matter?”
“He has pancreatic cancer. He’s not doing well at all.”
The last time I talked to Brian was about six months ago. He had called. He was between jobs. The printing company had laid us both off after the technology caught up to what we used to do manually. They no longer needed $20/hr operators to do jobs that could be done now by an $8/hr college student. I had moved on to an art director job with another company, but Brian had a rougher time of it. He told me then that he was thinking about selling his house because he was having trouble with the payments. I told him that I wanted to have him and Becky over for dinner, but we never set a date. Now, Becky was on the phone and Brian was dying.
We hadn’t really pal-ed around after we left the printing company. Different worlds, I guess. Brian was a hard luck case in many ways. He had a disfiguring skin condition that caused large moles on his skin. When I first hired on at the printing company, the HR guy had taken me aside to brief me on Brian’s condition, to not be afraid of it, that “it isn’t contagious.” Three years into our time at the printing company, Brian was diagnosed with multiple sclerosis. Then, about a year after we left the printing company, he had a bout of stomach cancer. I visited him in the hospital then. They thought they got it all and life was good. Now, Becky was on the phone, and things weren’t good at all.
They were calling me now, not because I was an old friend from bygone days, but because I am a Presbyterian minister. I’m the guy who has looked death in the face a thousand times and not flinched. No, I don’t like death. It doesn’t turn me on, but it doesn’t paralyze me either. I have the capacity to look through the horror, the tubes, wires and machines, the pain and loss, and still see an old friend who needs me right this minute. I have faith. I believe there is something wonderful beyond this vale of tears, but I don’t know what. I can say that I have felt it, that I trust there is something other than annihilation waiting for us. To trust – all is not lost. I believe that, and I’m willing to say it into these extreme moments. That’s why they called me.
I ask Becky how she is doing. She is struggling. She has built her life around Brian. Their eighteen-year-old son is not dealing with it well, not supporting her the way she needs him to. I tell her that’s pretty normal. At that age, they’re not emotionally mature and they withdraw to protect themselves from the reality. It doesn’t mean he doesn’t love her; he just can’t cope with it. My dad lasted until I was forty two. I can’t imagine what I would have done had he died when I was eighteen. I asked Becky what room he was in and what time of day he was most alert. She said about 3 PM. I promised her I would be down there tomorrow at that time.
In my mind I steel myself. I visualize what he will look like so that I will be prepared. I want to walk into the room and look into the eyes of an old friend. I can’t let the fear and horror get in the way. I will not react to that. That is my gift. You might call it courage, but it isn’t really. It’s just technique. I know that to be a help to my friend, I have to focus on him, not my own fear or revulsion at the condition. I need to look him in the eyes and give him hope.
And, I’m not alone. Heaven bends close.
I’ve been getting to know Adobe CS4, particularly PhotoShop, InDesign and Illustrator. I have played around with some of the AV stuff, but those aren’t serious working tools for me; the publishing programs are. I have worked with previous versions of Photoshop, Illustrator and Pagemaker for a long time, but even with extensive experience with these programs, the learning curve is steep if you have skipped a few versions, like jumping from Photoshop 7 to CS4. I can’t imagine the difficulty a complete novice would have in taking on this software.
Of the three, I would say that Illustrator is the least changed of the three. It is enhanced, refined and improved. The integration with Photoshop is almost seamless. It was always apparent to me that Illustrator was really written for the Mac and porting it to Windows was an afterthought. It didn’t run well or display well on Windows boxes. It was fussy about using EPS files from other applications. Its implementation of PDF technology seemed uneven and somewhat crippled. These things have been addressed in Illustrator CS4. The display is beautiful. Illustrator now opens and edits PDF files better than Acrobat itself, just as if they were native Illustrator format. Illustrator CS4 does have more filters and effects than previous versions. It has PhotoShop’s filters and a whole bunch of its own. Illustrator CS4 is the most familiar of the three if you know previous versions. Mostly, it just works and displays better than the older versions. I really like it.
Photoshop CS4 is both familiar and changed. They have gone to an annoying fly-out docking menu system which is really not that bad, but it’s taking me a while to find things on it and get familiar with it. Layer handling is better than in older versions, especially in EPS files, but it will still flatten placed element layers when saving to EPS. Effects are better and they interact with each other better. You can get some nifty type effects by using their “styles” which are just combinations of layer effects. There is more integration with animation and 3-d programs. I want to get into that stuff more, but haven’t really had the occasion. Photoshop is still primarily a photograph processor for me rather than a draw program. The built-in support for digital-camera RAW files from Canon and Nikon is impressive. This is a real plus. Older versions back to at least v.6 would open Nikon NEF files, but the utility in PS CS4 imports and corrects the RAW files using the camera data. I really appreciate this capability in PS CS4, although I have Nikon software that does those things and does them really better.
Of the three, InDesign is the most changed. It is, of course, the slain and resurrected Pagemaker. The instant you open InDesign, you see the Pagemaker interface. I have been running PageMaker since Aldus ported the first version to Windows back in the 80’s. Adobe bought PageMaker and brought out three decent versions of it, but then they let it die. Later they came out with “InDesign” which is nothing but Pagemaker rewired to be a Quark killer. It is as if they carefully took the best stuff from Quark and added it to Pagemaker, like the box system for placing graphics, collection for output and pre-flight, Photoshop filters and layer effects, color trapping and more. The result is kind of confusing because you now have both the Quark and the older Pagemaker systems for controlling graphics and type boxes. I always liked the old system of Pagemaker for positioning objects. It seemed more elegant and intuitive, but Quark was, in many ways, more powerful. One of the most useful features of Quark was its ability to save a page as an EPS file. This function allowed graphic artists to set up certain kind of things in Quark, save them to EPS and then manipulate them in Photoshop or draw programs. Guess what? InDesign now saves to EPS, JPG and some others. One odd thing that I noticed is that InDesign still does not have the complex gradient fills that Quark does.
Of my older versions of these programs, which will I get rid of? Probably, Photoshop 6 and Pagemaker 7 will stay, at least for now. Illustrator 7 will go. I see no reason to keep it. In time, I may let the older versions of PS and PM go by the wayside, but for now, they’re familiar old friends that I trust. I know exactly what I will get at print time when I use them and that is hard to turn loose of, even for the “latest and greatest.”
In terms of performance, you can feel the Adobe engineering as it takes advantage of the Core Duo Quad processor. Even large files, like 300 megabyte images (10’x10’ CMYK tiff at 100 dpi), are handled with ease. Rendering of 1 gigabyte video files by Premier CS4 is measured in seconds rather than quarter hours. CS4 has been completely stable on Windows XP Pro SP3, no lock-ups or other kinds of problems.
Overall, I’m impressed and not at all disappointed. Maybe in three or four years I’ll really have a handle on all the new features.
Since we can die but once, what matters it,
If rope or garter, poison, pistol, sword,
Slow-wasting sickness, or sudden burst
Of valve arterial in the noble parts,
Curtail the miseries of human life?
Though varied is the cause, the effect's the same:
All to one common dissolution tends.
---Thomas Chatterton
“During the early days of television development it was necessary to monitor and adjust the quality of the transmitted picture in order to get the best definition. To do this, engineers required an 'actor' to constantly be under the burning studio lights as they tweaked and sharpened the image, and Felix fit the bill perfectly. He was the right colour (black and white), impervious to the heat from the lights and worked cheaply (in fact a one-off payment was all that was required). RCA's first experimental television transmissions began in 1928 by station W2XBS (New York-Channel #1) in Van Cortlandt Park and then moved to the New Amsterdam Theater Building, transmitting 60 line pictures. The 13" Felix the Cat figure made of paper mache was placed on a record player turntable and was broadcast using a mechanical scanning disk to an electronic kinescope receiver.”
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